Guilded Child
Posted at 07:53 PM

i desire the shuffling of feet,
ears strained to discern it, ineffable as it may seem.
i desire to see that face grinning from ear to ear,
words blaring, "Mum, Mum!"
i hold on to every moment, consuming its every essence,
hoping; knowing that there will always be enough to inspire me
through the day.

alex is turning 2!
sometimes i look back and think,
i'm not even the same person anymore...
... i'm happier, complete.
but i know that nothing would ever make me blase'.
i'm an unfathomable well when it comes to my child's happinness.
she is my candle in the dark,
my happinness wrapped in a tender, fragile present.

Posted at 08:44 PM

it really doesn't matter,
what you've said, what you've already done
to get rid of the things that could embroil conflict in your life.
it really doesn't matter.
it doesn't matter how many times you've said no,
how many times you say you can't,
'cause it all boils down to when it would stop.

maraming makulit sa mundo.
kahit ilang beses mong sabihin na "iba na ngayon,"
"hindi na pwede," wala kang magagawa dahil hindi mo hawak ang lahat.
kusa na lang silang mawawala, maglalaho pag sila na mismo ang
naka-isip na, "oo nga, iba na nga ngayon."
ako, basta't hindi ako nagkulang sa pag-papaalala;
iikot pa rin ang mundo ko.

--
malapit na ang birthday ni alex.
maraming nagpapakita.
maraming nagpaparamdam.
pero kahit isa lang,
siya lang,
masaya na kami ni alex.

--
ano bang bago? hmm... namasyal kami ni alex. madami na siyang na-add sa vocabulary niya. "mall, higa, lika, come, daddy ko, let's go, faster. "
mag-papari na pala si bunso. nalulungkot ako. pero masaya ako para sa kanya kasi yun ang gusto niya noon pa lang.
bakit ba ang daldal ko ngayon? ewan ko ba. ang dami-dami ko kasing iniisip. mababawasan nanaman kami sa office. madami nananaman aalis. maraming hindi na masaya. (ako ba masaya pa?)
natapos ko na pala ang unang newsletter ng process namin. sana perfect din tulad namin ni derrick. hehehe!

Posted at 07:46 PM

i love saturdays!
admin work and less calls.

going back, i spent last wednesday doing retail therapy with
my angel, alex and ended up getting 2 pairs of boots from zara.
my little sprite enjoyed her regular jollibee , timezone time and toy kingdom visit.

money spent during bouts of depression, something to brood on.
time spent with your little tyke, priceless.